Pregnancy and Me

For three years now, my husband and I have wanted to have a baby. I can probably get pregnant BUT I can transfer Lyme disease and the coinfections, Bartonella and Babesia, to the baby. The idea of making my baby sick is terrifying. Also, the Lyme and the coinfections can cause problems with the pregnancy. I keep going through months and months to years and years of treatment so that I can lesson the load of bacteria and parasites in my body by the time I try to get pregnant. I want to have the best possible situation for the baby and for me but I don't want to wait many more years. I can protect the growing baby from Lyme disease if I take a pregnancy safe antibiotic throughout the whole pregnancy. The problem with Babesia and Bartonella is that the drugs that kill them are not safe for pregnancy. If I still have the coinfections when I get pregnant, my baby would be unprotected from them. I have been treating Babesia on and off for three years now. My serum levels are almost negative. The bad news is that I recently tested positive for Bartonella. Now, I need to put off getting pregnant and treat Bartonella with IV Levaquin. Sometimes it feels like I will never be done with these treatments and that I will never be given the okay to have a baby. Both of my doctors always tell me that I need about four more months of treatment. Those four months turn into four more months and the time keeps going by.

Horrible Fatigue in Palm Springs

Four days after my possible line infection scare, I flew to Palm Springs with my family. I am sitting in our condo looking out at the golf course right now. I have been going to the infusion center every week from Monday through Friday since November and it is now June and I finally have a week off. I have been looking forward to this week off for months. I was supposed to be feeling better! Now, my fatigue is worse than it has been in a year. What is going on? It turned out that my line was not infected and that I did have a cold but I am over it now. Did the Vancomyacin somehow set me back? Is it something else that is making me feel terrible? I was hoping to be able to play tennis for the first time in 10 years and now all I can do is lay around. I feel miserable. I don't even know if I can go out to dinner with my family tonight. I am scared that I have relapsed.