Staying the Course of Treatment

For the last three weeks, I have been taking the antibiotic Biaxin and the antiparasitic drug Tindamax. The Biaxin is for the Lyme bacteria and the Tindamax is for the blood parasite, babesia, which I also acquired from the tick. I feel physically so much worse while I am on the drugs. Part of me wants to stop all my treatment and try to live as normal a life as I can with the energy that I do have. I will not let myself give up on my treatment. I have a possibility to get better and I will not pass that up. In the meantime, I have to endure the suffering that the drugs cause in my body. I never know whether the worsening of my fatigue, my headaches, and my diminished ability to think clearly is a result of the side effects of the two drugs or whether it is actually caused by the toxins being released as the drugs kill the parasite and the bacteria. This reaction is called a die-off reaction, or a herxheimer. The bottom line is that I have to get worse before I can get better. My question is: how long will I feel worse for? Will it be for a few months or a few years? I am learning to live with the uncertainty. I am trying to power through the intense symptoms. In a way, I feel like I am sacrificing today for a better tomorrow. I hope that the future will be better.